Deciding not to decide..

All our lives we have so many people telling us what to do . Sometimes you listen and sometimes you don't . That's natural . But those times when you just want to listen to your heart and the ones you love are pushing you the other way then what to do ? The point where you decide what to do and how to do it that's what a decision really is . 

Sadly one reality we have to face is that we have to live with our decisions . But is that actually the sad part ? Facing the music , the ball is in your court , you got what you bargained for , I told you so , so on and so forth . We have a couple hundreds of these babies crawling in our minds . But the issue isn't the final say , or how much you took into consideration others feelings or did you listen to your heart or not. It all comes down to the point where everyone and I mean EVERYONE is the audience waiting for your life to turn into a freak show . That's sad and pathetic .. but that's what happens. 

Living with your decisions in life can turn out to be the hardest sometimes .. even maybe every time. But is that supposed to mean that we shouldn't have a say in anything ?We should let the elders say .. let their wisdom shine upon us dumb and poor souls who are considered "immature" and "lacking responsibility" ? 

We all do things in life that we regret , or that we wish we could've done differently to avoid hurting others. But we cant .. that doesn't mean that we should be stripped off the basic respect in life , or that we should be used as a bad example for everyone around us. 

Making a wrong decision or just a difficult decision or a decision that you cant tell the outcome of in the next 5 years doesn't always have to be frowned upon . I mean come on guys its not like you've killed or raped somebody .. its just that you listened to your heart for once . 

Its hell to wake up every morning thinking what turn your life is gonna take because of your choices... its hell to go through the day... even passing a second with those invisible eyes of the world on you waiting for you to screw it all up .. bidding their time to laugh at you and to mock you and to roll you deeper into the dirt. 

But here's the thing .. they can roll you and turn you into a pig or cow or dog but one thing they cant do is make you beg and cry and regret those decisions .. and they certainly cant break you . 

So get up ,dress up and show up , 'cause the show must go on . 

Cheerio :)

Clear rejection ...Fake promises ?

Yayyy the holidays are finally here . I feel like a complete stranger writing after such a long time ! Things have changed .. obviously not according to my tastes. But atleast I have a longgggg list of people and things to bitch about :) 

To think of it , feel I named my blog a litttttllleeee sweet :p but  I guess dissing people around me and hating them is equivalent to a hug in my world :p sweeter even (sorry if someones feelings got hurt little cry baby!). Everyone in my year is going mad with all these internship applications .. since they wanna be the next Bill Gates or Mr. Ikea or whatever ! Funny thing is that the people who promised me that they would get me a spot through some "relative" of theirs using the whole casting couch technique , bailed out :p BIG WOW that turned out to be . funnily I expected this from them .. actually I wouldn't be surprised if anyone in my class would turn out like this . Nowadays people tend to shock you more by being nice than they would hurt you by being mean and selfish . 

its the way of the world I guess . Maybe a survival mechanism for them . But that just me giving jackasses all over this world the benefit of doubt . The reality is something completely different my dears. Its not a simple case of being selfish . OH NOOOO ... its the game of egos .. the race to who can be the bigger bitch .. like an Olympic triathlon in which you have to be selfish , be cut throat and  have a god-complex about your abilities (god-complex for those of us who don't know means to think of your abilities as second to none ..basically living under the illusion that your better than others lollllll) .

Friends (or whatever they deserve to be called after showing their true colors) are the same . You stay with them for 4 or even more years and in the end they ditch you because well they think that just because you are well off you have a 60K salary booked just for doing nothing . Funny how minds work and how people are threatened by what your social standing has to offer around here . I sometimes wonder that is it fair to the so called "rich" kids to be thought of that way ? Maybe they lack alot of things we cant see . But as they say "jithey di khoti utay aan khaloti" meaning that even if someone as stupidly impulsive as me would try to make people realize how wrong it is that "hey dude you call him your friend" .. that 'rich' kid will still settle for getting kicked my those morons he would call friends. He would still look for their opinion and rather be with them than getting himself respected and getting the loyalty he actually deserves. 

Well Not like this will make difference to anyone at all . The question is .. who is wrong ? the one doing wrong or the one being wronged !

And more importantly ... which one are we ?

Cheerio :)