Deciding not to decide..

All our lives we have so many people telling us what to do . Sometimes you listen and sometimes you don't . That's natural . But those times when you just want to listen to your heart and the ones you love are pushing you the other way then what to do ? The point where you decide what to do and how to do it that's what a decision really is . 

Sadly one reality we have to face is that we have to live with our decisions . But is that actually the sad part ? Facing the music , the ball is in your court , you got what you bargained for , I told you so , so on and so forth . We have a couple hundreds of these babies crawling in our minds . But the issue isn't the final say , or how much you took into consideration others feelings or did you listen to your heart or not. It all comes down to the point where everyone and I mean EVERYONE is the audience waiting for your life to turn into a freak show . That's sad and pathetic .. but that's what happens. 

Living with your decisions in life can turn out to be the hardest sometimes .. even maybe every time. But is that supposed to mean that we shouldn't have a say in anything ?We should let the elders say .. let their wisdom shine upon us dumb and poor souls who are considered "immature" and "lacking responsibility" ? 

We all do things in life that we regret , or that we wish we could've done differently to avoid hurting others. But we cant .. that doesn't mean that we should be stripped off the basic respect in life , or that we should be used as a bad example for everyone around us. 

Making a wrong decision or just a difficult decision or a decision that you cant tell the outcome of in the next 5 years doesn't always have to be frowned upon . I mean come on guys its not like you've killed or raped somebody .. its just that you listened to your heart for once . 

Its hell to wake up every morning thinking what turn your life is gonna take because of your choices... its hell to go through the day... even passing a second with those invisible eyes of the world on you waiting for you to screw it all up .. bidding their time to laugh at you and to mock you and to roll you deeper into the dirt. 

But here's the thing .. they can roll you and turn you into a pig or cow or dog but one thing they cant do is make you beg and cry and regret those decisions .. and they certainly cant break you . 

So get up ,dress up and show up , 'cause the show must go on . 

Cheerio :)

Clear rejection ...Fake promises ?

Yayyy the holidays are finally here . I feel like a complete stranger writing after such a long time ! Things have changed .. obviously not according to my tastes. But atleast I have a longgggg list of people and things to bitch about :) 

To think of it , feel I named my blog a litttttllleeee sweet :p but  I guess dissing people around me and hating them is equivalent to a hug in my world :p sweeter even (sorry if someones feelings got hurt little cry baby!). Everyone in my year is going mad with all these internship applications .. since they wanna be the next Bill Gates or Mr. Ikea or whatever ! Funny thing is that the people who promised me that they would get me a spot through some "relative" of theirs using the whole casting couch technique , bailed out :p BIG WOW that turned out to be . funnily I expected this from them .. actually I wouldn't be surprised if anyone in my class would turn out like this . Nowadays people tend to shock you more by being nice than they would hurt you by being mean and selfish . 

its the way of the world I guess . Maybe a survival mechanism for them . But that just me giving jackasses all over this world the benefit of doubt . The reality is something completely different my dears. Its not a simple case of being selfish . OH NOOOO ... its the game of egos .. the race to who can be the bigger bitch .. like an Olympic triathlon in which you have to be selfish , be cut throat and  have a god-complex about your abilities (god-complex for those of us who don't know means to think of your abilities as second to none ..basically living under the illusion that your better than others lollllll) .

Friends (or whatever they deserve to be called after showing their true colors) are the same . You stay with them for 4 or even more years and in the end they ditch you because well they think that just because you are well off you have a 60K salary booked just for doing nothing . Funny how minds work and how people are threatened by what your social standing has to offer around here . I sometimes wonder that is it fair to the so called "rich" kids to be thought of that way ? Maybe they lack alot of things we cant see . But as they say "jithey di khoti utay aan khaloti" meaning that even if someone as stupidly impulsive as me would try to make people realize how wrong it is that "hey dude you call him your friend" .. that 'rich' kid will still settle for getting kicked my those morons he would call friends. He would still look for their opinion and rather be with them than getting himself respected and getting the loyalty he actually deserves. 

Well Not like this will make difference to anyone at all . The question is .. who is wrong ? the one doing wrong or the one being wronged !

And more importantly ... which one are we ?

Cheerio :)

Reverence .

Some words have become such fossil-like around us that we know they exist but then again so did the dinosaurs and dodo birds. We are blessed with many such fossils ..one such is maybe respect. sounds so strong and out there and OMG type . you say it and instantly everyone imagines someone like Morgan Freeman or some James bond walking into a room . But then again we all love our fantasies and I , more than anyone , am too dreamy about even the smallest of things. 

So back to where I was .. respect has such low occurrence nowadays . Or maybe it was always like this in every century and time. anything which can give people their own space , Honor and be considerate about their opinions , basically just being reminded of the fact that every body is AT LEAST still a human no matter what else flaws they have ... all of this has gone to the dogs. I've seen maybe one trait in some people but mostly all of us have that empty space where these three things should be. 

Now you'd respect your mom and dad and maybe your siblings but that same scenario and put some stranger into it , like a friend or a colleague or anyone you know not too well . BOOM the person you were at home just left the building baby. We are someone mean , or obnoxious. We just don't have the decency to be polite. When we are small we are taught how to respect elders be it anyone even the meanest person you know . But what do we do ? we humiliate them , try to show them that your so above them and they are so down on the floor . 

That's the main problem , we want people to bow down to us . We want them to wail and cry and beg at our feet . We want to be gods for them . We want importance , consideration and emotional ego pleasing lives from the ones around us be it our family or Friends or anyone that we are ready to do anything . All these things that we want ... well honey they all sum up into one word and that is respect . Its Honor . Its some self esteem we need to see reflected in the eyes of those who are in front of us . But sadly we don't get it . Alot of people give it but the taking end is empty and will remain empty probably even after their deaths . 

I guess that's life .. but I think we need to start earning respect by giving it . By not judging on someones history. By just trying to think or put ourselves there. that is the simplest of ways . If only we had the sense to actually implement it . Instead we choose to suffer and face humiliation because of the degradation we have given ourselves to people. 

Cheerio :)

An ode to all the boys .

My friend has a friend who has a friend who giving weird green signals to another friend of mine ... juts to get herself some male attention I guess :p Or whatever the reason is I don't care . But I kinda actually do 'cause my friend who is the victim hasn't realised he's the victim here :p He is thinking he's the hero who finally got the girl who thinks shes the so cool amazingly pretty cheerleader type .
Funny thing is that this is the story of alot of boys and girls . They think they finally find the perfect one only to realise that the magical connection just existed in your head .. In reality its a feed their ego connection :p meaning all the loving on one side goes to the other side to become ego fodder :p . Love is the most wonderful feeling in this world wowww yipeee eeeeee :p yeah sure it is !!! We need to identify love before we can claim to be in it . That's the glitch anyways. Reading about people we spend our days with the most . We act so wise but when it comes to too close a relationship like family or friends we are the stupidest people . I think we're little over dumb actually :p Girls are using you young man left right and centre . And you think its all good . Or you act all too clever and trust me beta your really making a fool of yourself . Your the only one who cant feel it but all my dear guy Friends we can literally touch the foolishness and dumbness :p

So don't fall prey to those opportunist girls trust me they get meaner than the 'acclaimed' playboys and they will throw you in a corner even you cant find .
This was just a friendly note for the "cool" boys and even for the ones who act all "we are not that type" , dude just don't see a girl and jump ...
Cheerio :)

Looky Looky

It's been such a long summer and I don't think i need to mention it was boiling hot too . My summer was exciting in good and bad ways . Fast forward it all and ow here I am stuck in my boring routine life with oodles of courses I ain't getting jack of.
The nicer part was I got holidays again in the last ten days of Ramadan . This post today would probably be all about me i guess . So I'm going to mope a little and complain a little and all this little is going to add up to be very big :p
So the other day I was just talking to a friend ( nothing special in that ) and I don't really know how the conversation really started but it ended up on one word "show off " . And obviously used in a very wrong manner . Which kind of created a rift too and killed the spirit of any conversation that would've been held following that :p
But I realised that around us we do alot of things that others perceive as us showing off to the world , or relatives or whoever the hell it is . This is because the level of superficiality has increased so much that we no longer stop to think for even a minute that maybe that person isn't  'flaunting' it,.... maybe its what they enjoy doing . By that I mean that we have stopped giving people a chance in life . We don't consider their perspective and we definitely take the first chance possible to jump in and criticise or accuse the person . Actually no That's what happened to me . I was offended as soon as it came out of my dear friends mouth . I've been kind of having conflicting thoughts about it too . I thought I'd confront . But then I thought it better to not . Because if the person didn't see it in me then they wouldn't see it now even .
So the easiest way was to mope it out here . But the moral of the story ... maybe we shouldn't tell people what we like to do in our free time , or where we enjoy spending our money , or if our tastes are may be a little over the top and expensive for their sensibilities.
(better one)Another moral  : Don't just come out with little name tags with "show-off" written on them .. or actually with any accusation at all on other people . Especially if you claim to know them or actually no "especially" cases ... just don't . Period .
Because honey they ain't labelling you . And trust me you should be scared if they do :p
Cheerio :)

Beauty ... and the beast .

Once upon a time there was a little girl with her little friends . They were all very happy .. no judging , no fights . Ego was like an invisilibilty cloak -non existant- and everyone was really happy .  
Then the wind blew and times changed . Some people turned out to be real humans , the others were just vessels for all sorts of animals . That little girl wasn't little anymore . She grew into a beautiful woman . I must mention here beautiful doesn't mean that the sun revolved around her and the moon shone with her flawless skin and perfect features . Oh no she was beautiful because she cared . Cared about people ,helped them , gave her friends advice that honestly helped them . Basically she had a soul .Something most of us are devoid of . 
The winds blew again but the times didn't change. The people did , the weather did and the situations did. But you see that is the thing . Time never changes its geography that brings the change , brings people closer or farther apart . It starts wars and ends them . Time is just a tool we can blame things on or be proud of when we see lives crumble. 
The girl ,  however she tried to be the same , didn't remain the same too . She became something we call 'angry' . Angry with her life ,  with her family or just with everything animated or inanimateness she started looking sort of ugly , beasty I guess.
This emotion was described  as a pressure cooker; we can only apply pressure against our anger for a certain amount of time until it explodes. 
 And one day that lovely girl exploded . I'm not sure if she felt better after that or not . If she died with that burst of emotions or if nothing happened at all and the days went past as usually .
But the villagers say that a lot of people were hurt . The close ones were seen in tears , some were caught guilty and some turned into horrible human beings, something they never were in the beginning . It was like a beast had entered town. Some of the people kept saying sorry , the girl said nothing to them but smiled a sad smile . Maybe some of those apologies were genuine , they actually did repent on the pain that the girl was feeling . But still the girl could've said nothing to anyone to make them better nor could others make her feel better and make her forget that outburst . 

No one was to be blamed here . No one ever can be blamed completely . These things happen . They happen on a minute to minute basis but we forget to take notice . An earthquake or deaths aren't the only tragedies . There is a tragedy greater than that and that is hurting people . And hurting yourself . So if people say they feel better after shouting then they are really big fat liars . I mean who feels better being a dog ? 
Yeah I thought so ... no one does . So next time you hurt people , or your blaming them or your just sick and bored of them for being in your life then leave them . And don't use them according to your moods and your free timings . If you don't want them now I doubt it you ever really wanted them in the first place . 
With your words or just basically your own insecurities you have no right to turn people into angry monsters . You have no right whatsoever to hurt them . And you definitely never had the right to say sorry . That is the biggest insult for anyone at all . Its like you killed someones mother dude!!!!
So to make this world a better place and not ruin the good qualities in those who you love because of these traits in the first place don't hurt them and don't be angry . Didn't work out well with the girl and it will never do much good to you too unless your a wannabe Hulk or Voldemort or all other things evil :P
Cheerio :)

Home is where the heart is .

A simple phrase ... but mostly under rated and completely cliched ... but then again cliches are cliches for a reason .

 I always have wondered why people say it .. mostly we just take the words all too literally . That , where ever we feel the most comfortable or perfectly fitted that's what a home is . In a way its true. But I - like always-  have my stupid-as-a-result-of-over-thinking take on it . 

Home , heart are so relative .To someone who moves houses and changes cities every 2-3 years they would certainly be very insensitive to the term . But I also think that people who have lived at the same place for their entire lives wouldn't know anything known as a 'non-home' environment. Wrong in both cases. Home isn't really a tangible word. It's not a building with four walls and a really soft bed. It isn't even a super luxurious area with a hugeeeeee LCD TV and an awesome sofa as a cherry on top .

 It's just the heart I guess . Its the place where our hearts beat ..actually where it's alive . 

Now , even that is such a relative phrase . If I'd talk about myself what would it mean ?? I'm not even sure myself I guess ... until I realise something is missing. Or some people are missing . Like I have everything but that one spark to set it all ablaze is what actually makes all the pieces come together. 

Home is a place that doesn't have to exist for people to see . Its untouchable and kind of even unfeelable by anyone but you... that's because it is YOUR home . Not someone Else's . Your happy place , with your person or persons , with your children , with the family you haven't met since you got married , with the loved one that you spend taking care off but see not much progress in recovery of , with your smile and with your laughter and tears mingled together.... where you don't really feel your missing out on something .Your finally not jealous of someone Else's life because you have the peace you've been searching for all your life . 

The travelling doesn't have to be physical , we don't have to travel the 7 continents , walks miles , or experience some big catastrophe to find love and peace . All we need is to look around .. use our senses ...may be home is the person talking to us , or the garden we sit in , or the family dinner we have , or basically anything at all that touches our deepest recesses , its just something that in the end finally makes misery a little or totally easy to bear . 

So if its the home your worried about .. then your worries end here . Don't earn money for a brick wall to be decorated with accessories and gadgets , or for a wooden floor , or for the latest car . Invest in smiles and people . Invest in that warmth that no one but you can feel .Invest in something like the mirror of Erised-only in this case it shows the real deal ... the background you never noticed because you were too busy looking at yourself and how your smile lacked that special thing . You don't look bad because your ugly or fat or poor or unhappy , its exactly as it should be , except that you forgot to adjust the lights behind you. 

Cheerio :)

Pump .

While the rest of the world ... my classmates ... are busy studying their asses off (no offence to anyone) , here I am wasting my time sleeping and watching TV . Actually no !!I did some bio-medical engineering crap today . And it made me thinking if we are supposed to make the stupid medical machines only , then why the hell are we studying about what happens in the human body . And then I'm in the 1000th random discussion with my sister . ...Yes I tend to do that a lot while I'm studying ! 

And what am I thinking ... that if I were to be a doctor what would fascinate me the most . And before I even finished my question I had the answer . I wont say "the gift of life" and all that crap . No the simplest thing that fascinates me the most is a heart . A beating heart . I mean I don't think anything could be more miraculous than that . An organ that pumps blood without any external help or stimulus . Come to think of it , if it isn't for us moron humans our heart could kind of live forever . We eat fatty foods and fill it with layers of unhealthy gelatin like rubbish. On top of that we literally press it between our own two hands to relieve the stress we created for it in the first place . Talk about being killers and you find one in front of the mirror. 

What can be more magical than a bag pumping blood all on its own to a body that in return just punctures and thrashes that bags little heart . Our heart would have a heart too . Just like we feel hurt and broken or angry ... or happy excited loved . Why would our heart not feel the same ?? It's another thing that the hurt and anger and love is all dependant on how we feel ourselves in the first place.

This little bag ... it beats . The most soothing sound that can exist . Some times even more that the sound of laughter around us . I once went with my mom and waited outside the labour ward while she was delivering babies of patients. and I heard it for the first time . At first I though there was some problem with the plumbing of the hospital .. and then I asked my sis what it was . And she told me . The beating of the little heart of a little baby about to come into this big big world . The heartbeat is usually so hard to hear that the nurses have to put it on a speaker for the doctors to hear . And that was my first time I fell in love with the heart itself . The poetic organ of our body that makes us love in the fist place .
How strong is the heart ??  well i guess pretty strong . It makes us blush when we are shy ( and trust me girls the hot guy has nothing to do with it whatsoever) . It flutters when he walks through that door towards us . It sends butterflies when we are happy . It makes us hot when we are angry . It beats like a drum when we are nervous . It makes our hands and feet cold when we are scared . It makes us cry on movies that are purely stupid . It makes us laugh when we see that one smile we would give anything for . In short when we feel happy .. our heart does . When we don't I doubt it the heart does too. 

So here it is to the most special , most magical , most heroic organ that can exist ..... actually stronger than even the strongest men we think .
Keep it happy.
Cheerio :)

Sizzzzling Sunday

Bonjour to all you beautiful people out there. <3
Today is a sizzling sunday, sizzling because its soo hot for  april and sunday because , well, its a sunday.  I'm Meeru; the guest blogger for today, and also mehreen's sarcastic vain sister. 
This post is about how to make a drink called " the virgin mojito"( mo-hee-to). ENJOY


THE VIRGIN MOJITO ; Pronounced MO-HEE--TO
A refreshing drink , tracing its roots back to Cuba.  Its tangy, citrus-y and not for the sweet hearted. ...called virgin because its a derivative of the alcoholic "mojito" but without the alcohol.
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Recipe;
You'll need 
- 5-6 Yellow lemons-( or green limes if u can find em in karachi,)
- Sugar 1-3 tbsp or how sweet u want it
- Apple juice (nestle's will do perfectly)
- Lemonade
-Mint leaves(Pudina leaves)
-Seven up 
-LOTS AND LOTS of Ice
-Tiny bit of green coloring , just for prettiness (why drink it if it looks ugly..eh? :p)

How to present it:
1-take a glass and wet it.
2- while still wet, take 2-3 pudina leaves and drop them in the bottom of the glass. take 2-3 more leaves , and stick them at the sides of the glass, while quickly putting 9-10 pieces of ice into the glass to make the leaves stick to the sides of the glass.
3-put this empty decorated glass in the freezer

How to make it:
1- Make the lemonade like u would normally, with lemon and sugar and water, keeping it a bit on the tangy- khatta side.
2- In a seperate container, mash 5-6 pudina leaves with a few drops of apple juice into a paste.
3- mix the lemonade, applejuice-pudina mixture together. taste it. see what u need to adjust.
4- add a half of a small bottle of seven up into this concoction. taste it again. see what u need to adjust.
5- Put just a small pinch of salt into this drink. this gives it that little zing.
6- now, in a small bowl put a 2-3 drops of green food coloring with some water, and put it in this drink. the color of the drink instantly changes to a lime-y green.
Now take out ur decorated glass, pour in the drink, decorate it with an umbrella, and serve.This drink hardly takes 12 mins.
So my lovelies, Have a chilled drink first, and deal with bullshit later.Its the only way to live.
See ya next sunday
:) adios amigos

Do and don"t ....???

I wonder how long in life do we have to keep on doing the"right" thing ! Right by this worlds standards. Or by our own imaginary book of rights n wrongs. Or by our families standards.
No matter what the case is. In this world people are never forgiven for a mistake and most of the time it's a mistake according to us. It might not b something wrong at all if only we didn't have some rule book instructions for people.

We have to behave nicely. Study nicely. Be successful. Be presentable. Have excellent language skills. Not break trusts. Not listen to our heart. Just keep on listening to people around us. We can't be too stupid to tell what we feel n people are too important to listen anyways.

So what are we actually doing right ?? I dont think anything we can ever do can make people give us one more chance. One benefit of doubt. One pat of encouragement.

Apparently I learned today ... Actually for quite sometime now ... That no matter what we do. One tiny mistake be it the heart's or the head's. It is never forgiven.
But we never think that who gave us the authority to forgive or punish in the first place ? We are as wrong as the next person. So why can't we give them a chance. How wrong can they do ? N why can't they do wrong ?? Or actually just DO !!
So next time before worrying and judging and making people think about why they where born to be related to you in anyway at all. Give them a chance. And most importantly give them their life back. Not what your take on their life is.
So thank You God for the good I did , and sorry for the bad.
Cheerio :)

Recognition is due ...

Today is Women's day .... wow . The nicest thing about today around me is that not one SINGLE Male and mostly all of the females too , remember today . 

Women I don't even think need to 'remember' it as such . Because helooooo we are celebrating women in the first place aren't we !!! But well ... all  around the world mostly today has a great deal of importance . Especially in the eyes of this male chauvinistic , male dominated world . I wouldn't say that the age has advanced so much that women are at par with men and all that women rights crap la la la la . 

No I am honesty sick as hell with all that same stuff. What I see as a 20 year old female ... actually 20 year old person who has nothing better to do in this world ... is a society around me worse than the day humans were made . We say women weren't respected in the early ages !!! well here's the respect they get today :

AS A MOTHER : 

She goes through the painful process of childbirth ... gives up her career most of the times . And stinks with baby poop and cerelac just because she loves us . What does she get ?? She gets a mom your too interfering ... too old fashioned . Too wrinkly ... too fat ... too conservative ... too open minded (yes that happens) ...you embarrassed me in front of my KEWL friends . 

What is she seen as ??? A woman in your house who does the cooking and cleaning and managing without the hassle that we have to pay her . Without the thought that just for one day she would want to go to the cinema and watch that new movie instead of her bratty ass-hole children . Just for one day she would like to buy her heart out ... buy the most useless things without the burden that she has to be answerable about the house budget . 

Whats she going to get after her children read this ??? An ohhhh yes that's true ... I'll be different with my mom from now on ... I'm already too nice with her actually ... Moms need kindness ??? no way man they GIVE not TAKE  . 

AS A SISTER : 

She probably helps you out with you homework ... she makes you stuff to eat when you hungry like a dog ... she helps you out in sticky situations . Basically shes your moms reflection without the generation gap . 

What is she seen as ?? Oh shes just a temporary member , going to get married anytime soon . The sooner the better because I'll hog the TV and the laptop and everything possible . (After all I am the meanest , greediest person alive ... I've never seen luxuries ... I'm a beast ) 

She doesn't have the Right to go abroad for higher studies ... 'cause  heyyyyy whats she gonna do if the party isn't for girls ??? Why should she go ??? She will be having stinky babies in the end .. so why waste mom and dads money on her its not like shes gonna become the president. ( Although my chances of being the head of the state are WAYYYYY more than even the current president) 

Whats she gonna get after her sibling reads this ?? Awww sis your the best ...*huggs and kisses* ... not more than that because I'll have to spend money . My sister doesn't like to go out and eat ... why have you heard her say that ?? .... um no I just assumed it like I always do due to me being a jerk and self obsessed idiot . 

AS A GF /WIFE : 

She supports you day in and day out ... bears your nonsense , mood swings , makes food , feeds you like a 2 year old , gets you presents for EVERY occasion . She's ready to fight her parents for you . She would punch her best friend if she loves you . She would wake up for you early in the morning even if her office started late . Literally ....no offence ... but shes your bitch . Does whatever you tell her to do . And in return asks for the best free  but priceless thing in this world ...LOVE . 

What is she seen as ??? Shes the one who will bear my parents because I certainly cant . She can fight with my mom if something I don't like is cooked in the house ... why should I stand up for myself ?? She works like a maid ... in the end just to hear that your not the type of wife I wanted ... You never supported me when I needed it ..... I've gone mad working for you just so that you could buy that silly dress .... Your too fat try loosing some weight like my BOSS' WIFE , or my best friends gf ... or even some random chick they just saw . 

What is she going to get after you read this ??? Oh here I got you a flower ...from our garden because the other ones come from money and they will die in the end so whats the point . I'll take you out for dinner ....in my favourite restaurant and order my favourite food . I love you ... can you make me a cup of coffee office was too annoying today , I struck a major deal that I will be head of and its all about ME now  la la la la . 

AS A FRIEND : 

She has no one else to go to so shes come here ... not because shes on the same frequency level as us . 

She does your assignments ... marks your attendance ...Brings lunch for you ... Makes you feel better if your having an off day . Recruits prospective chicks for you . 

What is she seen as ?? Oh shes a social outcast that's why shes with me ... She must be corrupt because aren't they all !!!!!:@ ..... Shes using me for my money or other such shit .... No guy will ever fall for HER , shes way too natural and original , shes way too fat , Way too skinny , way too ugly , way too this way too that . Shes not as respect worthy as my sister or mom or gf or wife is ..... because shes an orphan right ?? she doesn't deserve respect because why the hell dude why the hell !!! 

What is she going to get after you read this ??? 

Nothing . 

Not even a thank you , a smile , a compliment . 

In all these categories Not  EVEN one of these is getting RESPECT . Because of one stupid thing : EGO ... male EGO .. that would show your actually a man in front of your other guy friends or relatives . That would show your actually the perfect man you want to be when you buy that Hugo Boss perfume or Nike sandals . 

So dude if your not going to do something about it .... your daughter /wife/friend or just any random woman is surely going to screw your life over when he shows you the mirror on how big a JERK you are . I'd like to see better men when I'm 40 !

Respect them , love them . 

Happy women's day .

Cheerio :) 

Welcome to the zoo ...

I'll cut out the true love part from my life because as of yet I havnt seen it at all . By seen it I dont mean that it doesnt exist ... it does ... but not for me....not tangibly enough to beleive in it . 

 Humans are the most insecure animals in this world . YES animals because what we are doing to people around us can only be justfied if we are like any other predator in the jungle . They will do ANYTHING for an ego boost.And they do . Some of those things I actually had the time to make a list of in my head . 

• If they get sad its genuine .... but if one of their friends does they just laugh it off or completely deflect it . I mean it is extremely pissing off when that happens . 
• If you have anger management issues then your a child that is just stubborn and out of control ... if they have them then its justifiable . 
• Your so freakin' stylish and your aesthetic sense is so good that people come up and literally beg for an opinion ... but hey guess what ... they never even tried one little tip you gave them . 
• People can have "life theories" and philosophies ... but you cant open your mouth because your just too boring and pakaoo and over emotional .
• They zone out completely when your talking ... well you deserve that because you listen to their gibberish all the time . 
• You cant be excited on something because come one your 20 now .... but they can even when they get full marks on an A B C test !!! 
• You dont have the right dream ... but come on they've always wanted that stupid toy forever !
• When they buy its reasonable ... when you do its frivolous and no-value-for-money . 
• You dont deserve a good job because your too dumb or your not fit for it in any stupid way ... they deserve one because they are "people who shall bring change" . 
• You buy make up .... WTH ... they do ...well you copied us in the first place na ? 
• If your good at something every person around will make ABSOLUTELY sure they criticize so much that you might as well think your a failure . 
• Emotional blackmailing!!!!!!! that's what they do ,and we quietly knowing , but too much in love to say it , get blackmailed anyways . 
• There isnt one occasion where they will NOT give a shot to boost their ego by making you jealous , insecure  , show how they are better and your just one of the millions that got selected . 

I am sick of such people around me . They come in the form of a crush , a  friend ,a family member or just a stupid dumb-ass person you've met or talked to 2 times in your life . 

If you have ever done 3 or more of these to ANYONE ... yup congratulations your officially a jerk , dog , tiger , monkey .... or even worse A PIG . 

Cheerio :) 

or should I howl in your language for you to get it :p
P.S Dude it's not always about you all the time ... but if you want it to be .. then leave me in peace at least because I'll be happier without you .

Ouch ... that's what it feels like .

All our time we spend with people we are the most comfortable with ... thinking that they know us .. not completely but at least the visible parts of our personality and heart . Well guess what ... THEY DON'T . No matter what you do , or don't do , they end up having this cement block with your name on it in there heads . It cant be remolded , or melted and shaped again .
They see a few qualities of yours and when those attributes aren't working in their favour , they twist them around and distort them and one day show you that you are just a manipulative little individual . 
Recently happened to me .. one of my friends who I've always thought of as a really nice and kind person ended up literally slamming into my face that I am just friends with people because I have some work of my own to take from them ... or some cheap free favour !! 
That was really the end and beginning of it all . From now on I have decided to treat people like they treat me ..... COW DUNG . I'm nice with them ... I help them out .. I make an effort for them to smile ... and what do I get ?? I get stupid silly words like ,
"you'd do this because you want your own little work to be done ." 
Or ,
"you prefer me only when you its convenient for you."
I mean SERIOUSLY dude . WTF who do people think I am  in the first place ?? Some orphan on the street they can insult and laugh on like that . I admit I was weak and kind of embarrassed after that moment . I couldn't think of anything smart to say . I still cant  ... but the difference between then and now is that I'm pumped with extra blood and and an overdose of bad temper now . So I'm on kind of a rampage now ... a killing spree I like to call it :p 

If anyone who ever reads this has a similar recollection of such adorable and exciting , bone-crunching , limb tearing memories ... please don't be shy to punch that persons face ... or even better USE YOUR TONGUE . Because they slashed you with words too in the first place . 
And don't be afraid to spill the lava ... they should know how it burns too . Not just you .
A very angry but still kind of exhilarated  
Cheerio :)

BOOM : I'm not perfect but you should be .

It's been some long long long 28 days . And might I add the most horrible ones too . The busiest ones as well .  I've had depression issues . I've had serious jealousy glitches . And above all I've had bouts of  'I need to speak my mind ' problems . 

One of those lovely sunny days in which I wanted to break someones face with the impact of my mind .. I was just about to literally throw a hand punch on one of my would've-been-victim . The reason was completely simple "double standards". I had few opinions of my own , and the victim had his own . The problem wasn't that . The problem was that he was trying to stuff his so called 'pious values' down my throat . While he himself believed otherwise . He tried to just show me how wrong and outgoing and a little too flamboyant I was ... although considering his previous record , and the current one , he was still the same old fake person he always has been . 
Its funny that he was trying to show me how my thinking was all messed up . Although if anyone else had known the topic of conversation  , they would've wanted to tears his limbs off . 
That's the thing ... we do something , want something else , and preach something totally opposite to others . And when those others don't listen to us , we get all sulky and act like a big baby who cant handle the heat .  
So I guess we can all do a favour to this world , and keep doing what we do secretly behind the worlds back ... and still not go cliff climbing on others minds and values . 
OR else dude you really wont like the next time I easily , efficiently , cleanly assassinate your "perfect" character and personal choices in life . 
Till then teach yourself to shut up ... or go to hell . Whichever is easier and quicker :p
Cheerio :)

Home is where the heart is ...

Make sure whatever you do , do it with your heart in it . 

That's what everyone always says ...most of us do it too ... the rest just don't think they have time enough to consider the wishes of their heart . That's kinda sad ... because well isn't it everyones wish to be happy and successful with their own wishes and agreement ?

Looking at my life all around I feel that the things I've done with my full spirit in it have never ever turned out wrong . I cant say that I screwed up those impulsive things I did when I thought "why not .... its what I've always wanted " . 

Some decisions , although I'm not even that old , but still .... the ones I have made never have made me feel regret  about my choices . I've had parents berate me , siblings look at me with apprehensive "ummm okayyyy" looks , and some over-efficient relatives and friends that have given me the world of  horrible advice . And well... it has all turned out into full load of crappy results . 

I have a cousin ... He's totally fun , he likes eating alot and bascially having a blast with his friends , watching cricket and stupid political shows . Everyone in our relatives don't like him . They criticize how he isn't well groomed , or just mediocre in studies , or just plain hungry all the time . How he cant even have a conversation with "intelligent" people . And basically what a disappointment he is to the human race . COME ON HE'S JUST 16 !!!!!

But I always feel he's better than most people I know . It's because he's the only one I know who listens completely 100% to his heart . When HE feels like studying he does that , he has fun when HE wants to . The simplest rule in his life is to not hurt people and do what he desires . And at the end he always succeeds at an unimaginable level .

That is brave . That is more intelligent that all of the stupid , rich , successful idiots can ever do . That is just plain Freedom . 

Exactly what most of us lack is the freedom to scream , or shout , or laugh , or cry . Because we are scared what other people will say . We hesitate because we don't want to be outcasts in our community . 

We try so hard to be different that we end up being the same as the ones before us . But those who actually are free ... well they are the ones worth copying . Because they are the only ones who never were and never will be afraid of the reality that they have actual beating hearts . Not blood-pumping motors . 

Cheerio :) 

About to Explode ...

People go through an all time low . I had no idea I was the next one in line . I feel down , depressed and cry my eyes out all the time . Well not exactly but it's just a figure of speech . 

It's just that i feel ...weird. Whatever the case and reasons are I'd like to know them . I wish I could help myself . This blog is getting way too sober and whiny . So I'll take off . I guess I'll watch Vampire Diaries . because the living didn't do much lets hope a vampire brings me back from the dead :p

Just an advice for people who are having more shitty days than I am .... Make sure you teach people how to treat you . Because after all they are a bunch of selfish , self obsessed , self centred , materialistic , judgemental , humans . It's time you become one too . It's the only way we can survive . 

Cheerio :)

The safest place .

I read a book once . The guy in it was a little too paranoid , He even changed his name for crying out loud . But the strange thing I loved about the character is that because of his paranoia , he went to the airport and kind of crashed there for forever . He thought it was the safest place and nothing could happen to him . But his paranoia got the better of him and just for the very first time a plane crashed right into the terminal building . 

But whatever ! I'm not gonna start my book report now . I just realised that how right the boy was . I've travelled to so many countries and practically lived on the plane when my parents were abroad . But even I found the airports too safe and comfortable . I know most of the people now think that I;m mad 'cause of the terrorist situations etc . But I'm really not you know. Or maybe I am . Don't care either way .

I feel so cosy when I'm about to shift from a sitting position to a sleeping one on the chairs in the departure lounge . People are coming and going . Some are meeting family , some going away from it for God knows what reasons. Whatever the objectives , so many different people are under one roof . I think it feels safe because there are so many new unknown people around you that your free of judgement . You have a tiny bulb of hope glowing in all of them . A hope that no matter what happens to me I have at least 1 out of those thousands to help me out . 

This is one thing we expect from people we don't know . The ones we know , we also know what cruelties they are capable of . After all I feel , if given the chance , nothing in this world Can be as cruel as a human being . They know how to bring you down everytime .They crush every strand of hope in you . Make sure your heart screams with the torment they give you from their words . Yeah .....words can be the most magical one second , and they can bring you to tears the other . 

I think I'm drifting off now :p

Just wished we all had those safe houses .. free of guilt and judgement and greed and so many other horrible , annoying , soul crunching emotions that make our days miserable . 

And since we dont ... I think it's better to start concentrating on our personal acheivements and little drops of happiness that stick to the skin like dirt we never see . 

Cheerio :)

All you need... is someone else's idea.

So just the other day me and my mom were talking(actually bitching) about some old colleague of hers . Who was extremely unfocused in life , didn't want to do much except spy on her flirt of a husband , and leave her kids to eat any junk they could find as long as she didn't have to cook after her day in the hospital ended. But no matter what she was ...... one thing she was excellent at and that is ..... yes the way we all prosper .......*drums roll*... the art of COPYING . Oh yes ...... that's the word. I've seen too many people around me who had nothing in them worth being rich and famous and successful except this great quality .

And I call it a quality because in today's world that's what it is . 

So I'll most happily mention three examples of the people I have seen prosper to an unbelievable degree . And I'm sure we all have these kind of lovely people around us . Did I mention that with this skill of cheating everything from others these people also have an unlimited power to annoy you as soon as you see them :p

REAL LIFE EXAMPLE 001 :

As mentioned above .. She was kind of my mom's friend. And she didn't know jack about gynaecology . But that's the wonder of a human brain . And yes our beloved auntie learnt tiny little tips from all the senior doctors ... mixed them all up into one 'personal' guidebook for herself .. and voila now shes the consultant of a highly esteemed hospital without any actual qualifications except MBBS and bachelors in CHEATING . Even now she doesn't know much about her profession ... but what the hell hai na ???all that matters is the praise and awe in other peoples eyes .. and the moola of course $$. To be honest she cant even say OK properly !! 

REAL LIFE EXAMPLE 002 :

My best friend has a friend ... who was fine as she was . But all of a sudden one fine summer break later , she comes back a size zero because my friend is thin and pretty . And to top it all off she copies the EXACT same fashion sense as my bestie . o.k so its good and kind of flattering to know that people look up to you and that you might inspire and make them feel better about themselves in some way .. but this is going a littttttle too far . The funniest thing now is that that copycat of a lady now TELLS my friend that YOUR the one looking up to ME . Hahaha.... seriously !!!!!! But what can you do . That's the most common of humans .. they don't have enough dignity to accept that they were inspired or impressed by a mere human . 

REAL LIFE EXAMPLE 003 : 

I start a blog because I have nothing better to do ... and just a little time after that I have 3-4 people I know who have started one . But that's not the issue . The issue is they've copied even the most personal touches I use . And wait there is more ... they are super nice and hello-y with me ... but don't have enough guts to talk about their little new copying adventures . Another of my friends is a super talented photographer (actually he's my brother now:p... to all the people who know the story) and now since he's famous and good at his thing I've seen around 10 more people trying to copy him in someway or the other . 

Originality Nam Ki koi chiz hi nhi hai !!!

So......

Maze Ki bat(the unbelievable thing) about all of such activities is that people do them for all the wrong reasons ... like success or money or popularity . And they act all high and mighty like they were the pioneers. Give me a break . 

Isn't there anything such as honesty left around us ?? When will people get the fact that intentions are what make us content and successful .You shouldn't buy a Mercedes just 'cause your friend has one ... get inspired by the hard work with which he got it . 

So this is to all the copycats out there ... honey your not gonna go too far with all your crookedness . So wake up before it's too late ... because talent to bohat hai (there is too much talent).. and it's going to kick your ass like hell very soon. 

Cheerio :)